Bathsheba’s Diary part 10: A School Visit, a Patternwalk and Groombridge

In The Doom that Came to Amber

 

25th Bull 3658

Early hours – woke servants & guards.

 

Alaric flounced off, accusing us of wanting him to help pack up (perish the thought that he may actually do something useful!).

 

Not very long after, Morwaith went back to Amber, Aylwin to Minjonanita. Peter and I stayed to ensure everything went through smoothly, then returned to Amber to seek out Julian.

 

Trumped Aylwin & Alaric to attend the meeting – Alaric seemed put out at being asked.

 

Debriefed by Benedict & Julian, mainly Aylwin & I.

 

Full report, including poems – told mine (embarrassing), Aylwin & Alaric frankly refused to tell theirs in public – having heard a bit of Aylwin’s I’m not surprised.

 

Peter seems to be some form of family – Benedict seemed very interested in the Pattern arrow Peter was given. Apparently someone called Rhiannon used them – a very long time ago.

 

Long discussion about the final poem and meanings thereof – only result was it could have meant almost anything.

 

I am taking over from Benedict as Captain of the Guard temporarily – Benedict wanted to see me in the gym soon after the meeting. Grabbed some breakfast and got changed.

 

When I got to the gym, Benedict was carrying a mask – very unusual for him. We both masked up then he proceeded to put me through the hardest fight of my entire life, ending up with a slash through my mask at eye-level – at that stage he could have carved an epic poem on my face without resistance, I was so exhausted.

 

He then told me in essence that, although strong and capable, my stamina (or lack of) let me down every time – something I should work on – and if I fought any of the previous generation, I would lose. Notice he didn’t mention my generation (though I shouldn’t be complacent, there) – backhanded compliment or warning?

 

So exhausted I forgot to ask him about changes he had mentioned re the Guard. By the time I’d recovered he was going down to the Pattern (no doubt Peter’s welcome into the family), so I sought out Danesh instead.

 

Went through the changes –

-         surveillance and introduction of designated trumping-in points

-         shifts & patrol patterns

-         recruitment

-         guarding of entrances to secret passages.

Will have to simplify the patrol patterns, if only to make them comprehensible.

 

Sleep again – seem to be doing that a lot recently.

 

Woke up mid-afternoon and did an hour of weapons practice solo – starting to get a bit rusty, not good. Rest of afternoon fairly nondescript.

 

Went down for an early dinner only to find Khitan there – obviously a guest of Alaric, though Alaric didn’t seem to be fawning over him quite as much as before.

 

Khitan has the theory that the things from Lyon Abbey were kept out of our dimension by ‘nodes’ on which the Unicorn temples were built (sort of like padlocks on a fence) – but the decrease in worship means the temples aren’t strong enough to keep them out (especially when people deliberately invite them in). Didn’t quite catch all of it as K’s voice quite soft and room fairly noisy, also I wasn’t in the mood to hang around. If it is true, it’s rather worrying – the problem with Mira doesn’t really help, it can only be weakening us.

 

Flora there – mentioned that she’d heard I bought some more dresses. Had a brief chat, mainly about Faerie.

 

Waited for moonrise, then rode down to the steps of Tir na Nog on my own. Almost certainly a stupid thing to do, on reflection but I didn’t want to attract any more attention to the toy than necessary. I’m not really sure why I’m going, apart from a desire to master this thing [Bathsheba had recently been given the Moonstone by a noble of her late father’s faction] – and a hope I’ll see my mother (not that I know what she looks like, really).

 

Walked up the stairs when the moon rose, and found myself in that weird shadowy monochrome world again. Eric was standing there, arguing with a woman – I spoke my mother’s name and she noticed me, but didn’t know who I was or that she had a daughter. The argument was about fostering me – Eric said I should be; she wasn’t so sure.

 

Ironically, she turned to me and asked if it was for the best. I lied and said yes, it had turned out fine. What else could I say?

 

She gave me her ring ‘to remember her by’, and then said she had to return to Wolfmorland. Eric said something to the effect that he would be very proud of me when we met. He seems to have forgotten that when we did meet – but we hadn’t had this conversation then…

 

It’s like talking to a holo, I suppose – he is trapped in the past, I in the future. I hate mind-games like this.

 

Again, I met Paulette – she is really worrying me now. I suspect she wants the gem and she knows I’ve got it – she asked if I wanted to go to the Dreamlands. I said yes, just to find out what would happen. She took me down to the dungeons (saw Roger – who seemed more than a shadow; even without the jewel he seemed to have flashes of colour) to a strangely carved door. She declined to come with me telling me to ‘beware of the zoogs’ with no further explanation, and that she was in my dream. A threat?

 

I didn’t go in. Even the new reckless me wasn’t that stupid.

 

I wandered again – it seems to go in a pattern, Past, Present and Future. Turning down a corridor, I came upon a room, which should have been elsewhere.

 

It was the solar, but the window had broken glass and the room seemed to have been looted. Then, sitting in a corner, in a ragged dress, was Fiona. She was crying – when she replied to me, she spoke like one who has given up on life, nothing mattered any more.

 

It seems that her beloved sons – primarily Alaric – had killed the Unicorn. (To get in with Mira? It seems he would dispose of more than his granny for an artistic experience).

 

Out of the window I could see the city in blackened ruins, as she explained to me that Amber was dead and broken and the city smashed, this amongst her self-recriminations for spoiling Alaric (bit late now) which had led to all this. The longer I stayed, the older and more haggard she became, ageing before my eyes.

 

No sign of the paramour with red hair – so much for everlasting devotion, not even in my dreams!

 

As I stood on the cliff, saddling Briar (who was cold and bad-tempered), it struck me that, given the clouds in the sky, Tir-Na-Nogh should have faded a lot more than it did. Perhaps the gem makes it more real?

 

Not that very many people would have missed me if I had plunged into the sea. Given what I saw, maybe it would have been easier for me if I had?

 

Scrap that, if I’m going down, I’m going down fighting. At least some of us are loyal to Amber.

 

Must do something about getting a link to the lads in Wolfmorland – for my peace of mind, if nothing else.