The Raggedy Man's Revenge
Extracts from the Personal
Diary of Dr Belinda Durham
Monday
24th July
Now
that I’m stuck in
It began a few days ago when I had a strange phone call. A
hoarse-voiced woman recited part of the poem that we’d found among the ones
scattered on Roland Treadle’s hotel bed when we were investigating his
disappearance in January:
"An' The Raggedy Man, he knows most rhymes,
An' tells 'em, ef I be good, sometimes:
Knows 'bout Giunts,
an' Griffuns, an' Elves,
An' the Squidgicum-Squees
'at swallers the'rselves:
An', wite by the
pump in our pasture-lot,
He showed me the hole
'at the Wunks is got,
'At lives 'way deep in the ground,
an' can Turn into me, er 'Lizabuth
Er Ma, er Pa, er
The Raggedy Man!
Ain't he a funny old Raggedy Man?
Raggedy! Raggedy! Raggedy
Man!"
It was the same bizarre poem ‘The Raggedy Man’ by James Whitcomb
Riley, except that she changed the last line to something like:
You’d better mind the Squidgicum-Squee
Or you’ll end up like St Barty.
It
was scary hearing it again, out of the blue. When I 1471’d the number, it was a
public call box in the
This
took me straight back to January, and the bizarre events and people I’d become
linked with, following the last meeting of the
I
decided I’d better contact the same people again and also Dr Lionel Woodthorpe. I’d got the impression he knew more about it
but, just like a man of his Oxbridge type, would only give veiled hints. He
wanted to meet in his ‘club’, but I insisted on the Romano-British gallery in
the
Lionel
was his usual cryptic self, but managed to say that the phone call was from
Mavis Enderby, an ex-colleague of his turned
bag-lady. She’d evidently had a breakdown or something similar and now,
although she had a bedsit in
Now
visiting Broadmoor was an experience. It completely
unnerved me, even though we (fortunately Barbara and Eliza came with me) only
met one patient and members of staff. Toby Higginbotham was in a separate room
from us and I spoke to him by videolink. He was
obviously normally kept under heavy sedation. If I’d known in advance, I would
not have agreed to the visit. As it was, he ended up ranting incoherently and
fighting with the staff. The other surprise was that we met Adam Walters there.
Apparently he was on the Wilmarth’s medical staff! I
was very surprised because he’d struck me as a charlatan who exploited
vulnerable people when I met him before (although I’ve now revised my opinion
after how he helped when I was injured.)
I
had the most bizarre dream that night that seemed real and made complete sense,
in the way that some dreams do until you think about them the next day. I woke
up in an empty room to someone saying,
‘Hello!
I’d like to talk to you.’
It
was a man sitting on a chair in the corner of the room, naked apart from a symbolic
veil over his lap and an elaborate mask over his head, like Tut-ankh-amun.
Somehow, I knew that the weather was hot.
‘Call
me Djehuti,’ he said, ‘a mutual friend gave me your
name. You have something on your mind. Perhaps I can help you; and you can help
me?’
I
said something like the poem was not rational, and he said that I needed to
keep an open mind, needed more pieces of the jigsaw and the right tools. He
said that 'the glasses' could be useful and had helped others. I was right not
to trust Adam Walters, he said, because he was not reliable, but I should talk
with Adam because he owns the glasses.
‘Give
my regards to Dr Higginbotham when you see him next,’ he ended, and then he
began to take his mask off. I knew with absolute certainty that I did not want
to see what was under the mask, but could not close my eyes or turn my head
away. As he lifted the mask away, I woke up.
It
seemed perfectly normal then, but lying here in hospital I can see how most of
it is my mind trying to explain away the sights and sounds of Broadmoor and Tony Higginbotham, and work through my
distrust of Adam Walters. Still, I got Adam’s phone number from Barbara (who
was now at her parent’s home in Avebury with her family) and contacted him. It
turned out that he indeed had ‘the glasses’ – a pair of binoculars from the
country-house sale where I’d first met him.
I
can’t remember the exact sequence of events that led up to my injury, but they
included Adam agreeing to go with
Barbara
has been an absolute brick bringing my things to the hospital and keeping in
touch, although I am a little concerned about what has happened to my Land Rover.
There
are several things that I don’t understand. Why did the ice-age man stab me? We
know that most recorded meetings between peoples of very different appearance
and cultures were initially peaceful and friendly, even if they deteriorated
later. I look like a woman, despite a difference in clothes and height, so his
reaction could have been mere surprise, or maybe I appeared at the moment he
was spearing his kill and he could not stop himself. Whatever the reason, I
shall take some safety precautions next time (so the explanation I have given
the hospital staff and police, that I was injured by some surveying equipment
that shifted in the Land-Rover and will have to fill out an accident report
form for the University, is not entirely untrue!).
Why
were my injuries not as severe as I would expect after a spear-wound? The
consultant said that I’d been very lucky and it had missed all my organs, but I
know that immediately after the injury both Adam and myself
did something that slowed the blood-loss and alleviated the pain. I know that
people have been capable of great feats despite their injuries under, for
example, battle-field conditions, but I really don’t think that explanation
applies here. Maybe there is a real basis to Adam’s claim to be able to ‘help’
people?
There
is something going on that does not fit with a rational, scientific explanation
of life. The evidence includes: some events at the country house; Roland
Treadle’s death, dismemberment and continued existence; the Raggedy Man poem;
the dream with Djehuti, and his messages; the
binoculars. These do not make sense, but I cannot deny that they have happened.
This enforced rest lets me think about all these data without the usual
distractions, and despite my scepticism about New Ageism and all that stuff, I
cannot ignore the evidence.
Tuesday
July 25th
I’ve
had another visit from the consultant, Mr Siva Swaram.
The lab tests have confirmed his suspicion that there’s no infection in my wound,
no damage to my organs and the spear didn’t even breach the peritoneum. That’s
so completely unlikely, especially the lack of infection that I didn’t know
what to say. When he asked if he could add me, anonymously, into a study on the
outcome of abdominal injury, I just said ‘Yes’ automatically. To say ‘No’ would
seem so ungrateful. He says that I’ll probably be released tomorrow, but I’ll
have to be very careful. No driving, no lifting, very careful bending. That
hardly fits with following up the binoculars, but should let me do something
more interesting than simply lying here!
I
dozed off after dinner, and was wakened by visitors. This is where it all
starts to get a bit confused, because of what happened later that night. I’m
still not sure that I remember everything, and I get flashes and feelings that
I’d much rather not remember. My visitors were Adam Walters,
Considering
everything that had happened, I thought we needed to know as much about it as
possible, so I took photos of it with my phone, sent them to Jenny and then
followed up with a phone call. I had to explain what had happened to me, but
she was sufficiently intrigued by the pictures to see if she could pick out
anything more. Eventually she phoned back to say that the hieroglyphs, rather
to her surprise, were older forms that on the stele that they were supposed to
explain, and included the name Thoth in an archaic
form as Djehuti. Of course, that immediately rang
bells, from both my dream after visiting Broadmoor
and another that night. But I’m getting ahead of myself.
They
went away, and I settled down for the night, as much as you can settle in a
large hospital ward. Never-the-less, I fell asleep and into a dream. As you do
in dreams, I was looking down at a very old man in the bed opposite. He was
immensely old, just skin stretched over bone, like dry mummified skin. Then he
spoke to me, telling me to wake up.
This
is where my memory gets very, very confused. The short, and strictly
confidential, facts are that I was attacked by a shoggoth. I know that now, but
not as I came out of sleep through that unsettling dream to the dim light of
the ward and realised that something heavy was lying on me that smelt of decay.
I must have screamed continuously once I realised I was awake and it was real,
because after my voice had almost gone and my throat was sore, but I have no
memory of the sound.
What
I do remember is fear and anger from being trapped, fear of my wound
re-opening, of being unable to breath, and then as I felt something poking at
my body, fear of rape. I must have tried to push him away, to hit him, but his
weight against the bed clothes held me almost as well as if I’d been tied up.
My fear at the damage I might do to myself by struggling conflicted with my
fear of what he might do to me if I did not get away.
Of
course, I woke up the other patients and the nurses, and even Eliza arrived. I
later learnt that she had been called back to the hospital for an autopsy,
found that the corpse (and a porter) were missing and
pursued her missing corpse to my ward. Probably within a minute of my first
scream the lights came on, and then nurses tried to drag him off. Very soon
thereafter Eliza hit him with a chair, his head came off, he got even bigger
and then he jumped out of this third floor window and ran away. This must have
happened within only a few minutes, but I remember a very long time of
helplessness with fear and anger. I told the doctors I remembered nothing,
which was initially almost true, but more has now come back.
My
memory is still broken up, a jumble of pictures and feelings, and difficult to
think about. The medical staff checked whether I’d been injured further, and I
think gave me some sort of sedative. I also said something to the police, who
were trying to make the event match with their idea of an assault or attempted
rape. However, all this is still genuinely rather confused. I think I said very
little, and everyone was prepared to accept that because what I’d been through.
However,
in addition to the ‘normal’ experience of being attacked in what should be a
very safe place, namely a hospital bed, I was aware that my assailant was not a
man, and that someone had helped me through a dream. There was no way I was
going to say this to anyone outside the small circle of people in whom I have
confidence – Adam, Barbara, Elizabeth, St John, Jules.
My
initial scepticism has been replaced with a conviction that something outside
normal experience is going on. I think several of them – certainly Adam and
Eliza – know more than me, as became very apparent later.
Wednesday
July 26th
Once
the next day came, along with more police, Adam Walters, Barbara Smyth and
He
– it – had made a deep dent in the tarmac on landing, which the police could
not understand.
In
the end, even though Barbara had gone to find an inflatable boat, Adam used the
binoculars to see where it had gone, by looking into the recent past while
Having
got the binoculars out and some protection from the sort of attack that I experienced,
I urged him to let me look further into the past. I could not miss this
opportunity. He gave me the binoculars, and after I’d cut myself on them again,
I tried to understand the scale on what would usually be the focusing ring. I
turned it a short way, and saw what must have been a Second World War bombing
raid on Swindon, and when I turned it further, I saw horses with armoured
riders in the distance.
It
struck me then that I was being both foolhardy to use the binoculars without a
proper plan or record, and also wasting time when we should be trying to track
the lethal creature. So, reluctantly, I gave them back to Adam. Later will be
the time to make a proper study of and with them, when I’m fully recovered, and
the creature is caught.
Despite
the turmoil in the hospital, normal work had to continue to treat the accidents
and illness of
Monday
July 31st
I
have agreed to work for MI13, on a part-time, casual basis. I do not understand
exactly what I’ve committed myself to, both in terms of time and effort.
However, since I think I’ve accidentally got myself involved in this secret
organisation’s activities, at least this way I should get some resources, and
be able to explain to the University that I’m engaged in legitimate consultancy
or research, rather than having a holiday. The fact that everything is
confidential is not a problem for me or them. Indeed, saying that I am
‘undertaking confidential consultancy for a government department’ is much
better than having to say that I’m working on a problem that sounds exactly
like a horror movie!
They
suggested that I read two manuscripts, the
They
have also tried to teach me some, in the absence of a better term, magic,
namely the circle of protection that Adam used. However, to date I have not
managed to work out how to do it successfully. It is certainly not an easy
thing to do.